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2009-08-14T21:10:00.001-07:00

Valuation

Be it a botanical brews, a flowers kiss, a fungi cap,
a leaf in pipe, a leaf in mouth or a crystals
embrace; the entheogen user’s adventure awaits.
Not to become more than; simply to what they are capable of.
The masks we adorn: shame, dishonesty, materialism, vengeance
and much more shatter against the rocky reef of
introspective trek.

There may be a great price for truth, the truth.
What matters the cost compared to the debt of self
deception and entanglement of daunting lies.

The weight of self pity can break the strongest back,
the strongest mind.

Your spiritual awakening may never come, not from
another’s lips nor even your own, all the while it is there to be grasped yet not held.
The catalyst of psychedelic effect may be the not so
gentle hand that pulls us from our bastilles ever
tightening clutches.

2008-03-20T19:04:00.000-07:00

This is from JoeRogan.Net. Figgs inquired to my opinion of manipulation of the visions/experiences within the throws of DMT:

Originally Posted by Figgs
Enthogensmurf, I'm curious if you or anyone you know has had the ability to go into the dmt world/universe/dimension and actually manipulated/created things. I mean, not traveling across dimensions to only be an observer, but to accomplish specific things, such as, for example, trying to learn something by maybe asking specific questions to the other-dimensional entities, or even using your intention to travel into very specific dimensional locations. If not, do you feel that such an idea is absolutely impossible and that people are, for the most part, powerless inside other dimensions?

It's kind of a complicated question. I hope I'll makes this somewhat clear.

My response:
I'm going to need to babble a lot here to try and express the answer. I wish I could sum it up easier but I fear not conveying enough in only a couple of sentences. The difficultly of course is communicating the answer to a reader who has not felt the extreme non-ordinary state. Even bringing a clear imagine of what it's like to see colors can be tedious.

I still get lost in the astonishment of the vivid reality created in the mind. So, I would differ to a more experienced person (simply a person who's had more treks than I) for a more absolute grasp on the full control or lack of but there's enough exp in me to provide:

It appears you are able to manipulate the sceneries and "beings" to some extent. Many people do communicate with these beings as a consult (they are consulting themselves in my opinion) for answers to topics and catechisms. A type of excogitation if you will, from a vast resource that most human brains contain but are not fully accessible during ordinary states of consciousness. Probably due to the whole ego thing, western philosophy (suppression of the more spiritual side, etc...) and other factors such as our brain evolved to handle survival and assessment of the so called ordinary state where we survive day to day. We were not brought into fruition from a world where these states present selective pressures.

Still, they do not extend past the total ability of the specific person. In this I mean if you actually lacked the answer within the repository of psyche and collective wisdom/knowledge you will not manifest the solutions to yourself through the means of communication of these other beings or introspection without the creation of these "sentient" beings.
Perhaps I can sum this up in a more cohesive way:

If you have never learned how calculus, the resource would not be there, no matter which drug you consume, you'd lack the base understanding. This means those "beings" too would lack the ability. Now lets say you have learned calc but since then forgot. If that data is stored in the brain, the beings could very well show you formulas to these even though at a conscious level you don't remember them.

This does not mean in other realms of advice seeking, your little brain couldn't come up with theories to help your ordinary state. To sum this sentence up: It helps you think outside of the box or your box to which the ordinary state tends to hold people.

Now to provide personal experience in relation to the manipulation of music in the head whilst in the treks. I think this somewhat answers your question as well:

There have been times where there's a very distinctive musical rhythm dancing around in my head. With sheer will ('thought' I suppose) I could change the tempo, add instruments, remove instruments and because of the non-orindary state I could see the music being played out. I personally have pretty much ZERO musical talent, nor do I remember how to write down music. If I took the time (maybe I will eventually) to relearn how to compose music there would be songs and and composures created by me, all stemming from my ability to manipulate music in my head. Normally new songs/beats do not flow from my thoughts. The added help of being able to see music and the flare of being in another world where I'm a soul and not a physical body helps a lot..

Soul: In this context I merely mean a disembodied stated where the normal laws of physics do not apply. In general if you look at yourself in these journeys, you are not an exact replica of your physical body -- sometimes, perhaps most of the time, non-corporeal. I have no belief in the spirit overall as the normal term.

If you recall, Joe Rogan has talked about being able to do JuJitsu in his head. This is exactly what I mean.
Whoops: I forgot to mention that in this case Joe Rogan was talking about isolation tank experiences. I still see this as a non-ordinary state however.

Also I should note that as the initial transversing of your mind to other worlds it's much like your brain randomly (or if it isn't random, it's not at a conscious level typically) selecting a book from a vast library and manifesting that book as a world or dimension. So you can just sit back, wait for the experience and then interact or try to manipulate into a more directed goal of a specific world/creation.

Hmm, it probably comes down more to the person. Some people may have NO control and they are just flying through their mind created universe and others have more direct control. Oh wait, I did think of another way to explain this:

When your dreaming, you typically are powerless to change things. You are on a static ride. Then there are the times you DO in fact have the ability to change the course of actions but you still are not aware it's a dream. And then there's the lucid state where you know it's but a dream and you have complete and utter control or at times, some control.

Epiphany in respect to the god delusion

2008-03-16T05:40:00.000-07:00

Tonight I expended a portion of my energy in an attempt to draw some communication between the http://www.AtheistNation.Net chat and theistic mind sets. This was an open minded and honest attempt to create chatter. Never has it been in me to simply bash theists. This was executed by me signing up for several Christian based forums/chat sites. This was easy enough mind you; just the generic questions and data for the majority of boards.

Then I encountered a site that first of all restricts non-Christians where a visitor needs to actually check a box that indicates they are in fact Christian. If you do not tick the box; you cannot proceed. Obviously I ticked the box and shortly after found out they diligently seek to weed out fakers or at the least, discourage short attention span visitors by asking a lengthly amount of questions in regards to their beliefs and requiring answers that require thought and effort.

The questions, while requiring effort and knowledge about Christianity, they flowed from my fingers without any tedious strain on my person. There were a few questions where I referenced a search engine to answer, such as the need to specify my local church and favorite verse and chapter. Then the question of how I became saved, or more specifically when did I become a belief was purposed.

This as well did not require any great pondering. I selected the event of 9/11/2002 as my day of seeking god or greater answers that humans presumably can't answer. I was typing way, putting words that were my fictional emotional reasonings. As I typed more and more feeling being entered in sentences that were my need for reason and rhyme to it all.

I began to say that after the event I found god; to explain it all or at least make it ok in the grand scheme of things. And for whatever the reason my emotional level was greater than my more typical apathetic self, and the emotion put into words started to effect me; profoundly so...

I started to surrender logic, reason, common sense, science even! I was giving into the ecstatic concept of an all loving being, who brings order to all things. The answer, and although I may not understand or comprehend the answer fully, I was relinquishing control to god.

This surge of pleasure or bliss if you will, entered me. I'll guess that either I was inducing an increase of dopamine or seratonin or perhaps both; this felt good and wholly right. I may not tear at such elation but that's how it felt, that I would cry in joy to this communion with the creator, the father/mother of the beginning and all beings.

It was appealing to say the least; however, it was not enticing. I ended my testimony and thus the jolt of joy departed.

It seems to me that this sensation created the epiphany that I will now present:

I now know what it feels like to surrender my will to a god-like entity. What saves me from the blunder of the delusional is in the fact that I take the step back: I can separate this feeling and understand what is most likely the cause. There is a certain part of me, and I assume with most humans (at least some small part in the psyche)that wants there to be an absolute. In this scenario that absolute is god. The knower of all, benevolent, a synonym for love, completion, everything, etc...

The jubilation was a lie. Not in what I felt, because it was a physical sensation, but the catalyst which enabled this feeling. And please note my reference to "god" is by no means the vile Christian god, we all know how petty and human-like He is.

It felt good to GIVE into God. Reason and logic was whisked away and everything that matters to me in regard to my scientific understandings was nullified. To dismiss the reality my brain normally presents through electrical impulses. Oddly enough it didn't pain me to throw away critical thinking; as in I didn't feel weak for doing so nor did I feel it was a crime against myself.

Ultimately I believe it is not virtuous or right to give into a lie or self delusion. There is no nobility in believing an epic myth over truth, reason and the reality as we currently understand.

I see and feel now why people give in to these things. It's powerful.

My Analogies:
1.
I've committed myself to a monogamist relationship. This means to become sexually active or romantically involved with another female (I could list male here as well but I happen to be heterosexual) a lie of my belief in the monogamist relationship.
There is no denying that a physical relationship with another female would feel good, as my skin receptors are not exclusively stimulated by that one person. This does not change the fact that if I did such an odious act (odious only in that I personally am monogamist, not because it's wrong to have multiple partners) it would be a lie of my convictions of what I believe and that is a romantic relationship with one person at a time.

2.
The use of the drug methamphetamine is under my ethics as wrong, for me specifically. Just to make it clear I have no objection to people using whatever, provided they are not harming others. Anyways, once again, from everything I've research and viewed about meth it would undeniably feel very very good. Better than sex, better than this ordinary state, better than pretty much everything. The pleasure (elation, jubilation, bliss) created by the drug is there but for me to partake of this drug would be a lie to what I believe; defined by my personal ethics. It would be a lie because it would be a destruction to my ethics and pretty much everything that makes me, me.

My inner-zeitgeist may, over time, permit variants or alterations to my ethics and morals but they will not sway for far as to allow either of those scenarios to come into pass. Just as my belief in some form of a personal god will not overshadow my reasoning based on science and what I procure from the evidence and lack of...

Heh, this is not to say I wouldn't "accept" god if he/she/it came down to me and provided irrefutable proof of existence but come on now, just because a being with greater knowledge and what seems to be magic-like abilities doesn't make them a god. I'm just stating that in my opinion, I'm not closed-minded.

I feel pity and a bit of repugnance towards people who do give in...

Addendum:
Oh goodness, time has passed and the latter sentiments, while still aphoristic, the variables and increased complexity (what has risen to a conscious level) to communicating the entirety shall be taxing on my reserves to say the least.

If only coherent verbal babbling, typing streaming thoughts from beginning to end, anything outside of the brain really, was not experienced as never ending battle of my will against screaming beyond that of my head. To unleash the spectrum of sensations and tributes of irony that hijack clear thought far too often.

The taste on my tongue, intentionally to be only a slight hint to denote a part of me refuses to make anything easy at the conscious level, brings about a thought of pondering as to if there is some wicked bit in me that extracts erotic (it is not sexual, however it seems the only way to convey the appeal to others right now) pleasure by duel mindfcking from the amalgamation and cognitive dissonance of sadomasochism and masochism experienced simultaneously (I know we only process so much and only so much at a time, but it "feels" to come in one pipe and the volume with pressure is unyielding; leaving me to trash pages of thought to avoid other issues that I won't list or this text will fire off to pages and blathering and find itself deleted)

HMm.
Depending who you are, May Lilith Smile Upon You (if she existed). Most humans deserve less than existence, yet take more than those take pleasure in their desire to harm none and help all; making the here (reality) just a nudge more appreciable for our short stay.

This did in fact turn in a few pages and I have removed them and hiding that text from myself so it won't try and offer me treats to just add a little more.

Ah yes, here we are. I'll have to check StickAM to see if my rambling about this may work better (the heck if I can remember what I type):
While I learn towards more addressing theists, who base choices from realms and things which see to not align with bringing focus to value the here and now. This has always applied to atheist types and who ever else slips around these basic layouts. An atheist who uses "there ain't a god," "we can do whatever we want," etc. reaches the same hammer blow to the head.

FINALLY. Done.

Psychedelic Booklist

2007-11-14T18:51:00.000-08:00

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